Troubled week

Well this week was very fun * saying very ifie*. It all started at her dads ranch and and I knew it was a very bad idea to go out there but we went because we were invited and it has been years since her mother has been out there to see her dad. So everything was going to good until we left and that's when everything went spiraling son. She started getting an attitude and being abusive she even choked me out in the middle of the highway while I was driving all because while she was driving I was on my phone and she saw me making a comment on one of my family status. She got very anger bc I wouldn't explain myself to her, which I find if very controlling and mean that I cant even have friends or be on my phone because of her anger, but anyways when we got home the fighting continued so I left to avoid the arguing and when I decided to come back as I was leaving where I was and I saw that she had called me 19 times but I left my phone in the car. When I got home she started arguing with me and she pulled my ponytail off and ripped my shirt completely off and tore up my house and even the dang Christmas tree. So I pushed and slapped her because she put her hands on me first then she called the cops on me and sad that I was abusing her which is a lie. and the cops came to my house and didn't say anything to me just reached for me in my own house and I had an anxiety attack with the officer and he almost broke my arms and I developed a major bruise on my forehead and the top of my head. and had the most awful experience in that jail cell. She knows that other than spiders that being in jail is the most frighting thing ever yet she did it so easily and I just have the resent me towards her this is the second time this year she has done this to me for no reason after everything awful she had done to me I am still  here by her side but I don't know how much longer I can take this.. She has ruined my rep. and had been so abusive physically and emotionally. I just don't know what to do. She says she loves me with all her heart and I'm her world but I don't feel like it. I'm so confused and hurt its not even funny and now I cant sleep because I have nightmares abut being in jail. to add on to all the other nightmares I have and now I cant even meet new people because then she will get made and start being abusive.